by Lindsey Wray, Scotland Yoga Teacher Training Scholarship Entry RECIPIENT
Teacher Training with Yogacara
Growing up I was extremely active. I played as many sports as possible, and dreamed of a future with a career that involved movement and energy.
When I was 19, I was hit by a truck while walking across the street. With multiple injuries to my hip and back, my active lifestyle came to an abrupt halt, my future seemed uncertain, and I fell into a deep depression.
I struggled to find something to fill the void of a once energetic life. While I was still recovering from surgery, I tried guitar and knitting, but neither were the right fit for me. I eventually took up Aquafit, but found it difficult to meet people my own age and connect to the sport.
My only experience with yoga up until that point in my life had been at a hockey training camp, where I ended up falling asleep on my mat and having the best nap I’ve ever had. I didn’t understand people’s draw to yoga, its benefits, or its lack of competitiveness (or so I thought at the time).
Luckily for me, a close friend suggested I try yoga again, as an outlet for my depression, a healing aide for my injuries, and a reintroduction to my formerly active lifestyle.
I fell in love.
There was suddenly a purpose in my life again! I couldn’t wait for my next class, to put on my yoga wear, roll out my mat, forget about any worries, and just feel connected to my own body in that exact moment.
I learned that there didn’t need to be a score board or time cards in order for me to feel like I’d accomplished something, but instead, I could see myself in floor to ceiling mirrors and know that I had improved on a pose, or pushed myself to the limit..and that felt amazing.
For so long, struggling with depression, it had felt like my brain and my body were two seperate beings, and neither of them agreed with each other, and most certainly neither of them agreed with my soul, or the core of my being, or the athlete inside me.
Yoga brought all of these things back together in a symbiotic relationship. When my body felt good, my brain felt good, and vice versa. What an amazing feeling after so long of being trapped in such a dark hole.
I started encouraging other people to do yoga, or find ways that made themselves feel like the best version of themself. I would love to be able to reach out to people by teaching them yoga, and by showing them how easy it can be to get in touch with yourself.
Throughout this journey it has also been difficult for me to focus on a career, as nothing seems to fit who I really am. While spending this year focusing on what I need in my life to continue my happiness, I have come to realize that a career in teaching yoga will make me the best version of myself. Nothing would make me more happy than to take my 200 hour yoga teacher training. I am so passionate about yoga and its benefits, about leading a happy healthy life, and about sharing that with other people. This would be such a life changing benefit to me, and everyone I’d be able to teach in the future. Thank you for taking the time to review my scholarship application, it means the world to me to have this opportunity, and I sincerely hope to be able to participate in the yoga teacher training in Scotland October 2015!!